To the girl who thought she had it sussed.

I am naturally untidy and always have a pile of knitting projects, notebooks, novels, magazines and various other bits of stuff in piles around whichever chair I am sitting in, but I absolutely hate mess! I am a compete contradiction, I crave being organised but in my attempts to be so I end up creating so much chaos, I don't know why.

Prior to writing this I read back my last post and all I have to say to that is hahaha!  We are now in November and I am finally almost there with my craftroom.  That means I now need to go back and find homes for all the stuff that is now in a pile of bags in each room having been removed from the craftroom.  I am aiming to be done with the rehoming, have the very last box unpacked and out the coloured film on my front door and glass surrounds.

The coloured film and the last box have been left untouched as I want to be completely done before I tackle them.  I have hardly had the cameo on since the last post so no money is being made, unfortunately.  In my defence I had a really rotten summer including 2 cellulitis infections, a 10 day stomach bug and I topped it all off by writing my car off!  As well as all of that I have had several long periods of quite severe depression.  It seems to sneak up out of nowhere and suddenly I can barely get myself dressed, let alone out of the house.  There is no obvious trigger and no pattern that I can see, I suppose this is just something else that is going to be part of this stage in my life.

I tried going to a psychic medium show and the first time I felt that she was going to speak to me but I wasn't ready to hear anything and I think the look of terror on my face was enough to pout her off.  The 2nd time I was simply unlucky enough to be sitting at a table with a mum and 3 daughters whose need for comfort was far greater than mine.  I have decided not to go back for a while and see how I go.  It isn't terribly expensive, unless you want a 1-1 which is £100 for 30 minutes, which I simply can't justify.

My friends have been brilliant and my children and grandchildren have all been amazing.  Luckily for us Mark's partner is part of our family so we have no worries about seeing his boys and talking to them about their dad.  His daughter I see every week as she comes to do her homework and have a catch up.  It's hard to believe she is now in 6th year and is hurtling towards 18 but she is such a fantastic young lady in so many ways.

For now, I am going to try and post at least monthly, just to get me back into the habit of it.  Hopefully there will be some crafty makes to share as well but I'm not putting any pressure on myself regarding that.  If I can I will.  It will be nice to find out what I have and don't have again, perhaps I will find I have stuff I won't use and can sell it off to make a few pennies towards something new that's caught my eye.