When I was younger I often heard people older than me complain about time going faster the older you got and I thought I knew all about that. I was in my 20's and knew time moved so much faster than it had when I was a child. Looking back now I realise that even in my 20's I was still very much a child by today's standards. Now here I am in the back half of my 50's and I'm hanging on for grim death time is going by so fast.
I remember the shock and horror I felt when Mark came home to tell me that his girlfriend was pregnant. I was 39 and felt way, way too young to be a grandmother! So much so that Dawn was at least 6 months pregnant before I told any of my friends, I just couldn't adjust to it. Now that young lady is hurtling towards 17 and is so confident and together and everything I wasn't till I was at least 30, she is amazing. She works so hard at her studies despite being diagnosed, finally, at 15 as dyslexic, after years of fighting with different schools to have her assessed. Now here we are into the 2nd year after her dad died and she is doing brilliantly and is very, very like him in so many ways.
I have managed to pull myself out of the big black hole that I spent most of last year in. My kids aren't there yet, but they are both doing better than they were. Mark's partner isn't as it seems to have finally hit her, which is no small wonder, though her GP isn't really being very helpful.
19 months after moving in and I almost have this house sorted. I am back rearranging the things I put away first as I had no memory of what was where and could hardly find things. My kitchen just needs a few wee tweaks such as the making and putting up of a pin board and a final sort and tidy and it will be done. The lounge is much the same, only a few tweaks needed. Even my craft room is almost a workable space, and that has been the biggest hurdle. I'm hoping to be making scrapbook pages and cards at some point soon.
My main way forward is going to be with my cameo cutting machine. I want to begin to make some things to sell, just to have a little bit of give in my budget. I have been pinning things and rooting around shops for a while now but it's almost time for me to sit down and really learn how to use my machine to it's best and then see where things take me.
Over the past 4 years my life has changed so, so much and in so many ways. I have realised that the best time to do something is now, I cannot keep putting things off because time may just run out completely before I get to the end of what I want to do. So, here's to new beginnings.
